Return to My Authentic Self

Sometimes we have to travel down some dark paths, sharp curves and rough roads to come full circle to our true authentic path. That is what I recently did.

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I started down a new career path that I thought I would enjoy. I put my whole heart, soul, time and some money into this path only to find out that I hated it. I was working grueling long days and nights. I would awaken regularly at 3 or 4 a.m.  stressed out about what I had to prepare or do for the upcoming day.  I was a stress-out mess! I even cut way back on coffee because I felt like I had coffee buzz all day long from stress. Right then and there I should have known I was headed down the wrong path because I LOVE COFFEE!

I made the decision yesterday to reevaluate what I was doing. I felt like I was having a nervous break down. I was fighting back tears and knew deep down inside this career path wasn’t for me, but I felt like if I gave up, I would be a failure. What I came to realize is that I wasn’t being authentic to my true self and I was receiving all kinds of warning signals from the Universe/God to STOP.

So I finally did. What a relief! I felt like someone flipped a switch.  I went from frazzled to chilled and euphoric. I really felt like I was losing my mind. Last night was the first night in 4 months that I actually slept through the night. Phew. I awakened feeling so rejuvenated and happy.

I don’t know where I will go from here with respects to my occupation, but the good news is I have free time to write in my blog and do the volunteer work I love doing which is producing community TV shows at our local municipal studio and delving more into photography and singing.

I have to close this blog by saying how grateful I am to my husband for supporting me in all my endeavors and for providing the financial flexibility for me to to let go of something that just wasn’t me ❤

 

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