Sometimes we have to travel down some dark paths, sharp curves and rough roads to come full circle to our true authentic path. That is what I recently did.
I started down a new career path that I thought I would enjoy. I put my whole heart, soul, time and some money into this path only to find out that I hated it. I was working grueling long days and nights. I would awaken regularly at 3 or 4 a.m. stressed out about what I had to prepare or do for the upcoming day. I was a stress-out mess! I even cut way back on coffee because I felt like I had coffee buzz all day long from stress. Right then and there I should have known I was headed down the wrong path because I LOVE COFFEE!
I made the decision yesterday to reevaluate what I was doing. I felt like I was having a nervous break down. I was fighting back tears and knew deep down inside this career path wasn’t for me, but I felt like if I gave up, I would be a failure. What I came to realize is that I wasn’t being authentic to my true self and I was receiving all kinds of warning signals from the Universe/God to STOP.
So I finally did. What a relief! I felt like someone flipped a switch. I went from frazzled to chilled and euphoric. I really felt like I was losing my mind. Last night was the first night in 4 months that I actually slept through the night. Phew. I awakened feeling so rejuvenated and happy.
I don’t know where I will go from here with respects to my occupation, but the good news is I have free time to write in my blog and do the volunteer work I love doing which is producing community TV shows at our local municipal studio and delving more into photography and singing.
I have to close this blog by saying how grateful I am to my husband for supporting me in all my endeavors and for providing the financial flexibility for me to to let go of something that just wasn’t me ❤